why do i feel the need to make my life more complicated than needed? my life is good. my life is easy. but when its good and im happy I have to throw a stick in the spokes and fuck everything up. im so tired of being this way.
I dont even know where to begin. Its been months since I have blogged…so why dont I try to pick up from where I left off?
So about a month after my last post, AK and I broke up. Needless to say I was shocked and heart broken. The next couple of months to follow were a whirlwind of emotions. We’d take one step forward then 2 gigantic steps backwards…but in March (the 14th to be exact😉 ) after some really amazing moments (and some really horrible times) we decided to give things another go. Its been a rough road since but we’re still together and happy.
I’ve never really been an active person but after/during the breakup I joined a gym and found that it was my one escape. When AK and I got back together we decided to do a 10K run together. I don’t think I have EVER in my life ran even 5K so I knew this was going to be an interesting time for me. We finished the run in an hour and 17 minutes and I’m pretty proud of that. Since the run I’ve been pretty lacking in the gym but I’m doing my best to get back into since AK and I are signed up for Warrior Dash in two weeks. If you aren’t sure what it is, google it. It will be intense.
Aside from my love life, I also recently graduated school! WooHoo! I cannot say that I honestly thought I could do it and pass every class. After a very stressful application process I landed a great position at an amazing hospital in the city. Today was my first solo shift and as excited as I was to start I somewhat felt so unprepared. But I made it through and cannot wait to settle into my position and get to know everyone on my unit and get back to having a life.
Basically since November my life has been AK and school and work from time to time. My life is still AK and now work. I love my life and I wouldn’t change it for the world. I’m sure there’s a lot I left out but I WILL be continuing to blog so I’ll fill you in as I see fit🙂
a couple weeks back, my lovely friend Amber commented about how I suck at blogging. not too sure why she thought that would get me going because I am pretty useless when it comes to such things.
But here I am. mainly because i oddly have a break in my hectic life. Back in August I started dating someone…we’ll call him AK… well although I knew dating him would bring some drama to our lives I didnt expect how much drama would ensue. but we made it through and we’re still together and happy as can be (for the most part).
September 7th brought on a large change to my normal every day life. I started back at school. Its so intimadating going back to school at my age I had no idea how I was going to handle it. BUt so far, so good. and by so good, i mean GREAT. Ive been acing basically every test we’ve taken and getting perfect on papers and presentations. Its such a great feeling to be doing in good in school because I can tell you one thing, that NEVER happened when I was in high school. In fact my counselor told me in grade 12 that I wasn’t allowed to take a class I needed to get into a university because “Chelsea, with your grades you’ll never get in. Let someone who has a chance of getting into university take that seat.” WOW! Thanks guys. With being in school full time its been pretty hard to have a life. Along with full time school I was also battling with two part time jobs. I was recently fired from my long time position as a bar (for the most ridiculous reason ever) but oh well, good riddance right? right! my other job doesn’t pay nearly as well but that’s okay as my family are full of the most amazing and supportive people a girl could ever ask for. I would be so lost without them I swear.
With school and work it leaves very little time to see my friends… I spend the majority of my time with AK and his friends these days which is working out well…but I miss the girls. I’m in dire need of a girls night but I know good things come to those who wait. December 17th marks my LAST DAY OF CLASS! well until January of course. but that’s almost two and a half weeks off! I foresee a night at the Roxy for Amber and I. Ive also been toying with the idea of heading to Mexico with AK’s best friends girlfriend…she has a very wealthy friend that has offered to pay for us to go. free trip to mexico? YES PLEASE! We figure since the boys are headed to Europe next year without us we can take off without them. AK and I have also been thinking about a possible 4 day vacation to DISNEYLAND in February during my reading break. Not too sure how that will go over now that I lost one of my jobs but one day at a time.
So there’s a quick update. I will do my best to continue to update as I really enjoy coming back and reading things that have gone on in my life.. Toying with the idea of that 30 day meme that’s going around too..we’ll see!
if you haven’t heard Wakey!Wakey! yet, please do. love them. they remind me a lot of Jacks Mannequin but in a completely different way if that makes any sense…
it seems like forever since I’ve made an entry but at the same time I really have nothing to say. I’m still stressing about finding work. there just doesnt seem to be anything out there! But I know once I do get a lead on something they will all come flowing in. its always the way it goes it seems.
for the past week I’ve been house sitting a family friends condo. I love it. I almost forgot how nice it was to be living on my own again. the only downfall? Rachel doesn’t have cable and its about a half hour drive to my parents place. I wish I knew the area more so I could go for a run or something. I think I will make that my goal for tomorrow. look up some places to run because I really need to get on that. I know I have been saying I’m going to get around to it for the past couple of months but I really need to. I miss feeling good about myself and I found running always helped with that. Its an awesome outlet for stress (which I have been feeling non stop since I got home form Vegas) and it seems to make my body look amazing in no time.
This weeks questions were inspired by Robert Pattinson quotes…
1. “I don’t really see the point in washing your hair. If you don’t care if your hair’s clean or not then why would you wash it?” How often do you wash your hair?
I have to wash my hair atleast once every two days, if i dont it’s super gross. When my hair was long it had to be every day. If you see me and my hair is up, that normally means its gross and greasy and I was too lazy to wash it that day haha
2. “I take way too long to get dressed, like way too long. But only for things like shows or if I have to do public appearances. Like, I’m ridiculous, I’ll keep getting changed and getting changed and then I’ll just put on the same thing I wore the day before.” Do you take longer to dress for a special event?
No. I’m not your average female. Takes me about 10 minutes MAX to do my makeup. The only think that would really take me much longer to get ready is my hair. As it gets longer (working hard to grow it out…) its harder to style for me and takes longer to dry and longer to straighten obviously.
3. “My dad’s a car dealer, but I grew up in London, so I always say I don’t drive…I get driven. I got a driving lesson in Oregon, and then I bought a car in L.A. and I basically learned how to drive by people honking at me. I’m terrible at driving.” Are you a good driver?
I think I’m a good driver. Does that mean I AM a good driver? not really. I’ve been in one car accident *knock on wood* and it wasn’t my fault. The only person that has voiced their opinion on my drive is my mother but she hates the way everyone drives…so really she doesn’t count.
4. “I don’t spend any money. The only thing I’ve really bought is my car, which cost $1,500 and keeps exploding. It would be nice to buy a house for my parents, but at the same time my parents are so comfortable where they live; they would probably just feel like it was a burden. I wear the same clothes every day and the only thing I used to splurge on was DVDs.” If you had his money, what would be the first thing you spent it on?
A house. I’m so jealous of everyone that OWNS their own place. I’m so tired of paying someone elses mortgage I just want to pay my own. Sadly, living here in Vancouver a.k.a the most expensive city in Canada to live…yet it has the LOWEST minimum wage…that’s a little hard to do.
5. “I aspire to be Jack Nicholson. I love every single mannerism. I used to try and be him in virtually everything I did, I don’t know why. I watched One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest when I was about 13, and I dressed like him. I tried to do his accent. I did everything like him. I think it’s kind of stuck with me.” Who is your favorite actor?
8. “I definitely want to record an album, direct a film and start my own religion. I definitely wouldn’t have to pay taxes anymore.” If you started your own religion, what would it be like?
I’m not one to discuss religion so I’m going to skip this one
9. “I do bear some similarities in the sense that I’m not good at romance. I also think I lack basic finesse when it comes to women. I give up too easily even if I’m very attracted to someone.” Have you ever given up too easily in the game of love?
All the time. I’ve been hurt by love a lot. It sucks and it hurts so when I get hurt I back away. No one likes to get hurt. But I think I’ve given up because a part of me always knew they weren’t the one for me so why try make it work when in the end it would never be…
10. ” I don’t want to disappoint girls who might think I’m very cool and smooth, which I’m not, I’m afraid. I’m still quite shy, although that seems to be something of an attraction for women.” Are you, or have you ever been attracted to shy people?
Rarely. I’m a shy person…two shy people dont go well together…
the past two days I have been the laziest person known to man. I seriously have slept non stop. this is the downfall of not working.
I was laid off two days before I left for Vegas…which I thought would put an end to ridiculous spending….NOPE! sure didn’t. I just looked at my credit card statement…haha $1100…and I also spent $400 cash while I was there….ladies and gents, i was there for FIVE DAYS. How does one person spend that much in five days you ask? Wish I had the answer. While I was away, my lovely PVR recorded all of my shows….one of those being the Bachelorette. all I can say is WOW. The Jake and Vienna update? He is a complete and udder asshole and I swear there is n way he cant be straight. It just isn’t possible. I didn’t want the season of the Bachelor and I know no one really liked her but honestly after seeing that update I feel bad for the girl. THIS is why I could never do a dating show. I would fall in love at the drop of a hat and look like a fool in the end…Casey style haha
In other news, it seems summer has finally arrived in good ol Vancouver. ITS ABOUT TIME. Its rainy and gross most of the time here so when summer hits everyone’s spirits lift and life is good. Even mine🙂 You would think not having work I would be stressed out and worrying about money but with the sun around, I’m really not. Just going to enjoy summer and take things as they come. The right job will come around when its ready for me.
With this whole no work thing, I think I will be taking Amber and Nancy’s lead and go for a run tomorrow. I’ve been telling myself for WEEKS to get off my ass and go but it hasn’t been so easy to get off my lazy butt. I also need to start working on my belly cause its looking like a buddah belly. I’ll let you know if I actually get around to doing it. Wish my luck!
This is probably the tenth time I’ve sat down and tried to start this lovely blog of mine. I’ve never been very good and sitting down and writing due to the fact that my mind is a jumble of thoughts and emotions at all times. Emotion wise…I am your typical girl. Its not something I am too fond of because it gets me labeled as the “crazy” girl by many guys I date…when in reality I’m just that girl that wears my heart on my sleeve…when I get hurt everyone knows. The last two months have been a roller coaster of emotions due to some ginger kid that I cant seem to get over. Thankfully, I have an amazing best friend that gets me through my days and enjoys to kick me to help me get back up when I’m down. She’s ridiculously blunt and its exactly what I need. and even then, it doesn’t help half the time. Ginger kid and I have been broken up for almost two months now….we were only together for three and its still kicking my ass. I know one day I’ll wake up and just be DONE. 100% done. i just want that day to be now.